Pouring rain outside. I saw slippery sidewalk behind the foggy window in a corner of a cafetaria in my college. I do enjoyed this moment–sucking my cigarette while listening to some sad love songs through my earphone, Didi Kempot, Tanjung Mas Ninggal Janji
I was having my hot chocolate when I saw you came through the main entrance. You’re still like the last time I saw you. Did you know what’s going on my heart? Ya, it beats fast, “ndredeg”. It feels like there’s a butterfly in my stomach, “kemrucuk”. The feeling’s always like this, it’s just the same since I saw you for the first time. And seeing you accidentally in this unexpected time and place is under my control.
You were drinking a juice when a handsome tall and calm boy came to you.
I was just fine.
I just felt like the world was tumbling down in font of me.
I was just alright.
I just felt something hurt inside my heart.
But who am I to be jealous? You were never mine and we had nothing to be fight. We had nothing to be proud. We had nothing to be remember…
When I always found my self hoping can see you accidentally in any places, since then I didn’t. When I always found myself hoping can see you with no distance, since then I didn’t.
Because I learned that some things are better to be seen from a distance.
Saat engkau pergi,
Tlah kau bawa hati,
Dan tak ada lagi yang tersisaa…
Dia… Dia… Dia…
Tlah mencuri hatiku…